Thursday, April 26, 2007
9:56 PM
damn..everyday that passes only makes me feel worthless..that no one will ever accept me for who i am..last night i talked to some of my former classmates...they told me na ive changed so much...di na ako ung magulong gian na kilala nila..di na rin daw ako ung maangas na gian na kilala nila..sabi nila..."why do you always wear black?" sagot ko...cause my lifes so empty..i dunno why i became like this..and they saw me last night sa starbucks...katipunan it was mga 1 am na..tanung nnman nila...naka black ka nnaman...di ko na pinatulan umalis nlng ako..soo nung naka tulog na ako..i had a dream about them..they were all swimming in blood..haha!!astig...tapos alam mo ung tipong namamatay sila isa isa...ang sarap nung feeling ko nun sa dream na un..parang haha sa wakas nag ssuffer na rn kau!!..MOTHER FUCKING rich kids..all they do ais ask for this and ask for that...well u dumb mofos..heres a message...haha...try earning some the hard way...and i had some classmates who thought they were soo good in playing the guitar...haha they were in the dreams to...i dunno they were vommiting blood..into the pool..astig no..haha..sana nga that drea would turn into a reality!!
5:02 AM
guh...woah..another tiring day has passed...nag practice kami ng band..ewan ko bkit parang super stressed ako..di ko alam bakit...parang di na nga ulit ako marunong mag drums..grrr whats wrong!!!
well nag practice ng mga songs para sa event na tutugtugan namn sa may 4.hehe...last night was also cool!!di kasi ako makatulog...so i asked mom to buy MAMI sa kowloon house...ang sarap...pero mas masarap ang usapang mag ina..di pa ako nakakapag open up kay mommy sobrang tagal na..grabe..haha...well nung naka2log ako...wala akong napanaginipan astig..well ang dami kong sugat sa arms..haha!!!astig...nung gnawa ko un wala akong naramdan...weird!mern akong urge...na minsan guymawa ng s2pid stuff...di ko alam bakit..ang dami ko ring poems..na puno ng hatred..hahaun lang thats what ive been up to..
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
6:54 AM
I got emotions deep inside
too violent for me to show
here death and anger hide
for you are now my foe
These are some words of wisdom from mike!!!god i hate you so much...damn
Kagabi nanaginip ako na mag ka hawak daw ung mga kamay natn
sabay,bigla nalang daw akong 2migil tas tinulak ka..
nag taka ako kasi nsa gtna tau ng kalsada bkit nahulog ka...
tas kinuha ko daw ung part ng brain mo na nag cocontain ng memories natnt
and i removed frommy brain all my memories of you..
then i ask my self
IS THIS HOW MUCH I HATE YOU!!!<>
Ngaun ko lang na realize na all our lives are screwd up..may mga taong manhid talaga..sasabihin nilang mahal k nila pero di naman talaga...you think youre so perfect..pshhh..heres a message for you!!!YOU ARE FUCKING STUPID..haha...you want to get into a relationship with out commitment man thats fucking dumb.well go waste your time drooling over HIM..i would never get mad at him..coz he's my bestfriend and i trust him more than you..haha!!call me evil but its true..if only i cud curse my whole life to never fall in,love to girl like you!!..those nights when i attempted to kill my self were all because of you..sana pag bayaran mo lahat ng mga gnawa mo..sana wala ng ma inlove sau...SIGURO NGA SOBRANG NABULAG AKO..shit kung alam ko lang pala na pinag sisinungalingan mo na ako nung simula pa lang sana pala nag pakamatay na lang ako...If i attempt to kill my self..first ill call you..and ask you to meet me in a feild..you should wear green...haha...and when i take my heart out and i bleed so much gus2 ko maligo ka sa dugo ko..haha!!>:)...SHIT THIS IS GETTING MORBID!1
but there still something good in me..THANKS FOR CHANGING ME! RAE!!
niloko mo lang ako kaya ganun!!SCREW THIS WORLD!!!
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
6:06 AM
i hate you
thats what i have to say
i should hurt you to
then run away..
the scars on my arm
blood on the floor
happens when i self harm
cause of the girl from before
hate you
i don't know why
i have n clue
maybe its coz u made me cry
Saturday, April 14, 2007
5:56 AM
awwww mehn sayang di kami na2loy...grr..dapat tutugtog kami knina..sa opening ng sportsfest nila edward..pero di na2loy...sayang nga eh...mas masaya kung na2loy...na pagod nga kami sobra sobra..kung san san pa rin kami na pad pad.haha..una nsa joc kami nag ppraktis..haha..tas nag CS kami..tas pumunta kami kila peng..para kunin ung tix and ung dvd ng ONE TREE HILL!!!haha..
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
4:43 PM
Bakit kaya ang galing namin nila pala..haha..ang lupit nyo mehn!!haha!:))
gus2 ko ma2lad sa kanila..main influence ko sila ngaun..aside from +44,MCR,Red Hot Chili Peppers,Metallica
why would i waste time on some person who's only going to hurt you and leave...i hate that!!kung sino man ung tinutukoy ko mag isip ka naman..sana di mo nlang gnawa un kung sasaktan mo lang ako..sana pala nag concentrate nalang ako sa music!!haha!!para maging ka2lad ko tong mga toh!!:))
Monday, April 9, 2007
4:56 AM
samasama tlga ang mag babarkda and magkakabanda...we just cant get enough of eachother!!
bsta laging masaya pag mag kakasma kami...syempre..di mawawala ang nonstop naming jammingan..
malamang..nandun kami kay...(guess who!!!) malamng kay markd na mahal na mahal naming lahat..mahal namin ung khit lagi lang naming napag33pan...nag basket kami malamang ako nmumuno!!!tapos nun
nagpunta kami sa NMTC..not our usual hangout pero astig..for the past few weeks nag karoon kami ulit ng addiction sa CS..COUNTER STRIKE..pero wla parn ttalo sa RAGNA dba mga mehn!!!!haha..tapos kumain kami sa pinaka astig na restaurant!!
MANONG FISHBALL THE BEST KA!!!
after ilang kain..umuwi na si taro..swimming daw eh..haha..welll umuwi na sila.at tumambay na kami sa bahay ko...andun kami sa terrace namin..nag aaabang ng sunset ng biglang may "den den den" may ice cream! haha...tnakbo tlga namin..nkabili narn..at natapos ang araw..sa isang magandang sunset astig ba!!!mejo nag senti mode kami nun..haha!!!
G.I.A.N
